During her third pregnancy, Britney Spears is revisiting prior horrors and ordeals.

Over the weekend, the 40-year-old pop artist took to Instagram to express her fear of welcoming a baby in America, the country where she was placed under conservatorship for 13 years. A monochromatic photo from one of her first two pregnancies was also posted by the singer.

Preston, 16, and Jayden, 15, are Spears’ boys from her marriage to Kevin Federline.

“Oh, time… “What a lovely mystery,” the actress wrote. “I’ve had this gown in my closet for 16 years!!”

“Oh, my goodness, I’m growing old!” “I’m not ready to shop in old woman stores,” she says.

“If someone even mentioned me being confined in a home… being seen nude every day when I changed like some type of criminal… my guards would actually knock the devil or God himself to the ground in literally a split of two seconds!” said the pop diva.